just your average loser

bahahahah I’m being hacked……. oooh i like goats and chicken feet

gah.

here i go again on another long rant about something.

le sigh.

i do this a lot dont i ?

i just rant about something random (usually one random thing though) and no one reads it cuz no one follows me !

meh i dont care im basically only on tumblr to get photo inspiration and rant about stuff. because the only four people who follow me are my best friends.

so yeah, im sitting here in my family room, and i was on facebook, and i started to think.

im stuck in a viscious cycle.

in the day i think hes an okay guy whos interested in other girls, yes, and sometimes interested in me.

but then i go on facebook and when he is on, he talks to other girls on their walls and i think

“geez, how could i be so stupid as to think that he only interacts with the girls in his sight”

im the most naive person ever.

its actually really funny

and technically, i shouldnt even be doing this because im in a relationship with THE BEST guy on this planet, and i still like the other guy (who shall remain nameless)

its a long distance relationship, thats why i think this is happening.

i dont get to se him everyday, so my mind needs something else to fix on and think about so it chose him.

i know in my heart that the guy im dating is the right choice, but my head is telling me something different and this goes on night and day and in my subconcious and its not fun and sometimes

sometimes i wish i didnt like boys.

but then i look at both of them and i realise that its sorta worth it

ohwell

nothing i cant get over eventually

i should probably go to bed

im tired

le goodnight

but chances are i wont sleep